AddictionSmoke fills the air too thick to breath
Can’t decipher in which way to reach
No light to guide trapped in this place
Hands are shaking with nothing to drink
No one to take hold to pull me from this
This addiction that I can’t resist
My drowning desire is my only friend
That stays with me until the end
Against The GrainIt’s easy for others to judge one
When the feeble mind is composed of
Jealousy and resent
Talk to me like you know me
And tell me things that I should be
As if I don’t know what’s best
So take your persuasion elsewhere
And stand in my shoes if you dare
Beneath The SkinIf I could show you emotions I’ve poured into love
I could fill up the seas and the infinite above
But now I stand here hatred and heartache my sin
From the scars I have gained
That I would not ever wish on anyone
I can’t bleed
All these things done to me
CatatonicStep inside the empty room with me
The walls are white for an enlightening
Experience but never mind the pads
Lets sit in silence with the hour glass
Wake up the noises are deafening
Wake up this is all just a dream
ContemplateSadness builds while happiness just passes by
Violently I still try to relieve myself from the depression why
So much to live for
Sooner or later these feelings they will subside inside
Agonizing over who I am
In solitude is where I feel I stand
Take another drink to block the pain
Dark WingsSigns of Betrayal - Dark Wings
Callous mind holding tight
With a desperate word.
Spoken light whisper’s trite
Pouring over.
Lines of grey count the ways
How the blood will fall.
HoursDrive your emotions in so deep
Right when the world begins to sleep
I'll fall into your pieces
Your wild imagination
Lead me in gently lover
I'll be the one you're waiting for
Chasing hours through this never-ending
I'll crave all that you can give me
MedicateAre you there lost along the way
opening doors trying to medicate
I’m still here waiting to embrace
finding your ghost that’s already been erased
so hold on until I’m gone
when I get there I’ll take you along
we’ll hide away from the rest of the world someday
My Song To YouHave you ever felt you were lost
Standing amongst the mass
Tried explaining the delicate thoughts
and hoping the pain will pass
All these feelings I live everyday
They echo inside my head
As I lye awake in bed
ScreamsFear of love we love to hate
the only true escape
saves you from suffering
saves me from ever healing
you find the boundary line
I’ll build my wall inside
sinking deeper into everlasting hate
we’ve found the devil’s gate and we...
SelflectionHandful of rage carefully placed onto the innocent
Conquering more try to ignore the shame in doing it
Bury the blame carry the pain avoiding punishment
Exposing the truth never will do because of the intent
Because of the intentions
A wicked design to better the times won't help to understand
Try to disguise the hurting inside neglecting self and man
Soul SurrenderedLost
Lost inside boundaries again
Pray for to come from within
Living in typical sin
And complaisance my old friend
Alone and high again
Throwing caution to the wind
Suffering So ProudLet all the red roses bloom
To signify that you're around
I know I could not say goodbye
So I'll still keep you close inside
It's kind of like
A part of me
Bruised that day you had to leave
The AudienceI'm yours only for the moment
Let's see what lies in store here
In this wicked content you bear
In this phony coming
It's very crystal clear
I am now re-stricken in fair
To RememberYesterday I found that poem you wrote
So meaningful the words that you spoke
Did you see the real side of me?
Or just create your own fantasy
I tried to believe we were meant to be
All that's left is this tragedy
Forget to remember the times that we had (we had)
Waiting RoomYour lights of fluorescent expose the colorless objects.
And offer reflections below the footsteps that guide us.
Into the narrow obscurities that never end,
Aligned with everything that we depend.
Where life is death waiting,
To take us in with contagious smiles,
That we long for.
Hold out our hands begging,
Watching SilentlySaying goodbye never seemed so tough
Formulate ways to not be wrong
Wearing this burden on my own
Sanity might be lost in the fight
Somehow the screams seem louder tonight
Don't know if things will be alright
Sent away to protect
Weather the StormSo much to say
When the clock ticks time away
And seconds before I stood hours
Held in a breath
Everything I meant to say
Is still lsot inside of me
Without any hesitation