- Ashley
Temperance EP, Conversion Records / 1995
What have I done to deserve this?
What have I done to deserve this,
This life of suffering
And dreams unseen?
I'm just a child so afraid,
For the gift of death, that a mother gave.
- Do You Remember
Yes, I see those cold eyes wandering across the pages of what might have been, and yes I know you've grown mucho older now, but do you remember him? just a girl, he took her hand, led you to a place you had never been, full of sunshine and skies blue like his eyes, made you forget about the days when the rain fell and the sky was so dark, so dark you could not see his face cold and pale, deaf to your cries, just a girl, you ran away from a dream unrealized...take this pain, let it pass as the years have, heal your heart of the memory, heal yourself from the girl betrayed
- Haunted
I've heard the words that you say, like the night they're gone with every new day, i've seen the things that you've done, am I the only one to see the mask on your face? to see your lies of sincerity? is it too late erase the picture that you've painted of me, judge a book you've never read, questioned for things never said, I would never call you my friend, when your name is jealously, why pretend? is it too late to eras the picture that you've painted of me, you preach your unity and togheterness, when all that I see is jealousy and separation, you claim to sing your songs of truth, while you build your fortress of superiority, I never thought i'd feel so alone where I once felt so at home.
- Higher Role
Holding on to the memories like a string,
Not knowing what tomorrow holds or will bring.
Fantasy or reality - what is the truth:
Is life a game or a trial we're put through?
Holding on to the memories...
People often expect me to succeed;
They try to make me play a higher role.
That is not me.
- Shifting Tides
Time slips from my grasp, and those once lost days never leave my mind. my own desperation has kept me bound. how will I ever see again when all I saw was you. how will I ever touch again when all that I feel is you. these shifting tides nearly stifled my scream and turned my gasp to drown. I cannot win this war. I always lose. I cannot scream through your deafening monotome. I will not recall, your memory keeps me here, but your presence kept me down. these tears fuel that machine as I continue to drown. I can no longer turn the page. I can only suffocate. I held you up so high. how could you ever let me down? the dam is broken now, and the gears no longer turn. gazing up from this hole.