02 Panic Room© riverside.art.pl
Used to be my Panic Room
The other side of me
Where I slept and woke by turns
And nothing seemed real
I was feeding on your life
AfterI can't take anymore
I can't breathe
I'm sick of this goddamn darkness,
Sick of sadness and tears I throw it all up every single day
Together with last night's dinner
I have lost myself completely
I have convinced myself I am someone else
For God's sake,
Artificial SmileHi my friend
Shake my hand
Tell your lie
With your artificial smile
Don't be mad
I just want to help you
To say these words out loud
Before I’ve become resistant to myself
To my weaknesses and pain
I’ve become the one
who wants to live
And just feel alive again
I’ve changed myself
I’ve become addicted
to being strong
Behind The EyelidsIf I still believed in me
I would lie
If I had another chance I would try
If I lost my dreams I would blame myself again
If I were myself I would be someone else
Cause I can
See the truth in the photograph
Beyond The EyelidsWe are none of us...
If I still believed in me
I would lie
If I had another chance I would try
If I lost my dreams I would blame myself again
If I were myself I would be someone else
CloverStarring at the sky
(which is your sign)
Answers comes inside
(once more)
Watching in the sky
(to tell you the truth)
We only see ourselves
(as that "YOU")
CodaNight outside grows white
I lie faceup in my shell
Open my eyes
Don't feel like falling into blank space
Had allowed that life to drift
For I've chosen different trail
When darkness fades
Don't feel like falling into blank space
Cybernetic pillowLast time I made you up
You looked so bright
I was about to believe in angels
Searching my lucid dream
Came up against
Pictures of your imagination
Dance with the Shadow
Pull myself together – holding on
Standing at the point of no return
Keeping on the right side of my heart
And the moment of truth is falling on me now
I don’t care if what I want
Is written in my eyes
Egoist HedonistOnce in the middle of the crowd
I stopped
Suddenly I felt so good
Not being on the move
But became an obstruction
In your way
And I was surprised
How fast you could unite
Escalator ShrineWe are escalator walkers
In the brand new temple
Came to reshape identities
Shed our skins
Be reborn
And feel the same
That no one here is real
Feel Like FallingDay outside grows black
I lie faceup in my shell
Squeeze my eyes shut and feel like falling into blank space
Had allowed that life to drift
For I've chosen a different trail
When light fades
I feel like falling into blank space
Forgotten LandLook at this field my son
Deserted, empty place
Where the dead silence feeds on lost whispers
There was a Kingdom here
A City full of life
Songs of its praise were being sung by the mountains
Oh, listen to them now
Hybrid TimesCome to me now
I will host you
I'm the alchemist of our times
I know exactly what you need
You've climbed so high
You've gone so far
So you deserve something special
I BelieveI learn to understand
Getting harder to pretend is ok with me
In this moment I believe
And I want it so much
In spite of everything
You make me so real
I Turned You DownI turned you down so hastily
And it's tearing me apart
In my heart of hearts I'm screaming
In my heart of hearts I cry
And it's cold
So cold
I turned you down
In Two MindsAnother day of talking
And I'm in two minds
I think I have to tell you
I finally realised
I know you'll never really get inside of me
But I don't mean to hurt you
Just let me disappear
Left OutHuddled in the corner
Disillusioned
My lifeless stare is fixed
On your silhouettes
You're disregarding me
Passing me by
Like I'm not even here
Maybe I'm not
Living In The PastI need a place where I can belong
This alternate world is not my home
I suffocate here
The hollow laughs of the hollow men
Embarrassing Carnival Parade
Can't stand more lights!
Loose HeartRaise me up
Don't let me fall
Cause I don't get myself
I feel like I felt before
But can't find my way
All those feelings went away
I may not be what you think I am
Lullaby of Deserted Hellye miora ish laphere near lawida shealia rdiala
syaramanica kiel mayje hawpilujah
ill feeyue rmana wize so ye ishnearlia reigi reigi...
ye miora gra laphere shealia lriu rafielia
kltiell kiel mayje reiphere
rifieill freria blakeyile kindia rmore
ya ralveira kltick hawdiailmore
New Generation Slave""Into this world I came Filled with fear Crying all the time I guess my birth Left a great scar On my heart and mind Now I hand-pick cotton And struggle to sing \""I am happy and I do what I like\"" But my voice breaks And I start to hate My singing And simply everyone Mama told me Be good Work hard And love Mr. God Every Sunday I lie Trying to realize why Ain't nothing more to say Your Honor Don't look at me like that The truth is I am a free man But I can't enjoy my life I came to a standstill With lies and hopes inside my head Always seemed too late to turn And too soon to understand No I don't have a stomach ache It's just my face... I got stuck I ran aground I got used to spewing bile I wonder whether all those years Hadn't been a waste of time So how am I doing? Oh I CAN complain Smoke too many cigarettes But I don't care...""
OKNeed to stay right here
I don't care if there
is a better place
I must try it myself
Again
My broken sleep will never be the same
I'm only hanging on
And waiting for another night
Out of myself/he/
I don't feel quite myself
I think I'm losing heart
I'm sick and tired of all those words
Voices in my head
I think I have become
Another suffering of my soul
ParasomniaLying here on the floor
Starting to come around
What you did Mr. Hyde
What you got me into this time
There’s blood on my hands
Emptiness in my mind
I don’t remember my name
Schizophrenic PrayerSo afraid of rejection
Hide inside ourselves
Acting like strangers to avoid the pain
We collect our phobias
Our sicknesses
Feel so good only when we can complain
Second Life Syndrome[Part One - From Hand To Mouth]
From day to day
From hand to mouth
We're turning around
Vicious ritual
Getting used to it all
Falling down again
The Curtain Falls© riverside.art.pl
I know what I'm really like...
I'm bleeding...
I don't mind...
That was very foolish of me
I can do nothing now
The Depth of Self-DelusionI could be foreign forever
To your otherland
I could be foreign forevermore
To your promiseland
One life was great
But another…
No, I don’t want to live on the edge
I won’t follow you
The Same RiverPart I (instrumental)
Part II (instrumental)
Part III (Again)
/she/
The Time I Was DaydreamingSky above my head
Open mind
And I try to think
Think of all these words
Should have said
Didn't want to escape
From this dream
Where I want to be
Through The Other SideSo welcome to the No Man’s Land
Where you can finally face yourself
Fear of feeling something real
Is your friend now
There’s no need to run
So welcome to the No Man’s Land
Where nothing is as it seems
Under the Pillow
Under the Pillow
Hey you,
Somewhere in the mirror
What happened today with your face
Your eyes
Sank in their hollows
Volte-Face© riverside.art.pl
I have spent all my previous life
Waiting for something else to start
Now I see that I have felt so numb
To everything that passed me by
Need to go land on my own two feet
We Got Used To UsWhen I scroll back through our recent days
I try to understand
How we could forget
We made a promise to one another
That nothing would ever break what we had
Now we never talk when we fall apart
We never talk when we fall apart
We pretend we’re ok