- Everything Sleeps
a.) We can’t change our world with more of the same of this (with words we’ve made up) it matters how we live. And even darkness has to sleep, or take its turn, in the sky. This is it? But everyone can see this, and that sounds like a dream I’d like to make one day, but sacrifices must be made. We are all bold and we all fade. Until there’s no soil left to sow. Watching dust float in the sunlight. Until there’s nothing left on the bone. Drawing maps in our breath on the window. It won't always be this way, and sometimes nothing works. But if we give everything we have every single time. We might get to live what’s next. This voice is barely a whisper. It is nothing. I am not this. You are everything.
b.) Wait! Listen, I will try and choke out some kind of mystery. We might not all get sleep, but we will all be changed, and then death won’t be able to count a victory. My friends my enemies our bodies are empty, but even being empty has potential. The space between my head and heart I try and fill it with simple, or innocence the shade behind our eyes. Our soul is at our teeth so speak through it. We can't keep what's not ours. It piles up and turns back to dirt. There’s work in making long lives, but what is that worth? When those who have nothing can see more clearly How can we see more that way? Instead of making laws for our own gain. When everything sleeps, how long will you? Everything sleeps, how long will you? Everything sleeps, how long will you? There are warning signs louder than words can say. Because sometimes words get in they way. Where there is nothing. There is God. God is everywhere.
- Falling In Love With Glaciers
I met a shell of a mountain who knew she was finished
claimed she grew up from a grain of sand
with every year wider she bloomed a little bit longer
to the roof of the sky with outstretched hands
she made friends with the sun, shared enemies with no one
counted weeks like she should of counted days
and swallowed handfuls of night so she could sleep tight
and turn her thoughts from its stone cold ways
- I Don't Want To Live Forever
You've got beet blood in your mouth and lies in your artichoked heart
you’re black eyes stalking through me
with a birdcage for ribs, that vultures trying to get out
it’s scratching your kidney wings
we’re no longer feeding ourselves, the raccoons are eating our dreams
pushing past our feeblery to keep them out, this morning I heard one sing:
there's a whole big world out there my son, be careful don't believe them.
there's a crazy old lady in the sun, she's angry can't you feel it?
- I Have Nothing But Attention When I Scream.
sometimes i feel like a square trying to fit in all the wrong circles. It's hard to see your dreams when you're eyes are black and purple. Getting broken by the beat down in each and every small town. Some call it love i call it a heart attack with a new sound. Population you and me tonight we're speaking gospel to a handful turn up the lights so we can see and put our problems on the anvil. This place is an ashtray and you're anything but: the used up end of a cigarette where the nicotene cuts. So...Follow this second hand smoke and mirrors routine we can all be friends i promise it won't hurt to bleed. These are my deaf dumb blind scribblings every single word. My only prayer is that they're regarded as retarded and never heard. This all i have it's all i know it's not a lot. All i have are words, here this is all i got.
hey i'm sorry because i've been gone such a long long time. please, i promise i'll be there for you.
i'd hit the pavement again but all my knuckles are broken, and there's no use saving them because all i'm doing is choking. It's another hundred miles on this long gray road i'm trying and another hundred dives in a row i'm diving in. That, glass of water so i can feel maybe something to fill this soul. We're all thirsty i know. Well i won't be your clown tonight. Sorry yall i've got no tricks, but i'm willing to take a look at what you need fixed. And that's all i have to offer i'm the cheap version of what you need. I'm a liar i cheat and i steal, it's all for me. This is my deepest secret please tell everyone you meet. This is all i have. I have nothing but attention when i scream.
- It Will All Happen The Way It Should
a.) If you find yourself all alone or in prison. Whether behind bars or in your mind there is a plan. There is a plan, there’s a way out. It’s all happening the way it should. If you’re behind bars inside your mind there is a plan.
b.) If you feel yourself tied down or in danger. If it’s on the tracks or inside your heart all that will pass. All that will pass, there’s a way out. It’s all happening the way it should. If you’re tied down inside your heart all that will pass.
c.) If you push yourself to the edge and feel like jumping. If it’s 10 flights up or even more than that just hold on. Just hold on, there’s a way out, there is a plan, all that will pass. If you’re on the edge and feel like jumping, just hold on.
d.) If you’ve taken yourself underwater and you aren’t breathing, and you are drowning in your life, there’s something more. Just hold on, there’s a way out, it’s all happening the way it should. If you’re underwater and you aren’t breathing there’s more of that.
- It's time for drastic measures they're not taking you seriously
and when the music stops, all we have are words merely so listen up, they're not taking you seriously. And i'd write the words, if i only knew what you needed touch you in the heart...Try and stop the bleeding. And all i want is for you to be ok i'd give my life for you just say the word. And i'll write the words, and tell everyone our story. Try and touch their hearts hope they don't ignore me. And all i want is for us to be ok i'll do anything for you just say the word. And i'll say the words, it's what i do it's not my choice. They touch me in my heart, i try and give em all a voice. And i don't want it if it's easy. I can't have it until i've really worked for it. Because all you'll have is this idiot. But i'll write the words, and if you give me 5 minutes. I might break your heart...But we're just beginning. And all i want is for our you to be ok i'll do anything for you just say the words. And i'll spread the word as far as this body can reach. Try and find their hearts, no matter how deep. And i'll die for you i love you all with all i am. I'll do anything for you just say the word. And when i've stopped believing. I hope you'll pick up all these pieces that i'm leaving. Because you don't want me if i'm cutting all these corners.
and when the music stops, all we have are words merely so listen up, they're not taking you seriously. They don't respect you, it might be your managing style. If they neglect you, you might try not being kind. When no one likes you, it's time to start docking their pay. What if they hurt you, you might try filing a complaint. But remember sticks and stones, and stick those stones where you can use em again, make em bruise when you send that they'll lose in the end, when they feel your revenge. But right now's the time, and it's got to be drastic. Trying to hold it all together with prayer and some plastic ties, no matter what the size. I try and try, and die. A little death every time i close my eyes, and resurrect and pass right by. Another day, another chance another window, but they're not taking you seriously though. We're downsizing your accounts. We're all hoping things will bounce. We got to do what's right for the economy. We have to let you go, because we have no more money.
and when the music stops, all we have are words merely so listen up, they're not taking you seriously. You might try stalking the aisles. Dragging your feet with a sinister smile. You'll know they respect you when they beg you for mercy. Crying on their knees saying please don't hurt me. I have an suv and a family to feed. My house is very large you can have it for free. We have lots of money just grab what you need. Just leave me my life you can take my dignity. You might consider their offer. Just ponder for a while and look like your thinking. But then frown and say they're not worth it, and walk away and you'll feel like a king. They're not taking you seriously. Your oblivious and can't feel shame. It must be how you carry yourself. Your the only one to blame. So listen up.
- It's Time For Drastic Measures They're Not Taking You Seriously.
And when the music stops
All we have are words merely
So listen up they're not taking you seriously
And I'd write the words, if I only knew what you needed
Touch you in the heart - Try and stop the bleeding
And all I want is for you to be OK
I'll do anything for you - just say the word and I'll write the words
And tell everyone our story
- Most Roads Lead To Home
I can’t remember.......making all these visions in my head
but they’re moving in this room........fighting together above my bed
shadows swirling hand in hand........making new faces in the wind
keep trying to help me forget my name, and I keep trying to leave them
our ghosts fill up these hollow walls, empty hands filled with silence
we are still alive from what I’ve seen, heads hanging in the balance
I’ll keep on in this sleep......I’m never gonna find that perfect cure
I’ll hold on to my name, because it’s the only thing I still know for sure
- My Five Year Plan
Trouble will find you she's an awfully cunning bird. and progress it blinds you it's in every lesson learned. Failure leaves more room for improvement masquerading as time well spent. Honesty is a noble tool I'm gonna learn to use it wisely. Reason outweighs the rules when I lead with you behind me. Loyalty sadly held prisoner and pity is her only visitor. I want to live for a living, buddy I want to live for a living my five year plan.
Well I'm going to iron out all of life's disappointing wrinkles. Cover them with plastic when it pours we won't feel he sprinkles. and of course I want to grow but brother this is all I know. I want to live for a living. I want to live for a living my five year plan. I've given my all, it's all that I have. I've given my all my all my all my five year plan.
We'll build a tiny quiet god to hold us console us, and buy a house that's made of hate. It will burn you and turn you. Practice makes a path towards a new start. I'll pack the ice around my stone heart. Accomplishment is the cross we'll bear I'll wear it like a coat. All dressed up in achievement responsibility around my throat. Squinting hard to see the finish line with one eye on the bottom line. I want to live for a living I'm gonna live for a living my five year plan. My five year plan.....My five year plan.
Hindsight is a priceless jewel but I've never been one for clarity. I'm gonna hold fast to all I know even if it's just barley. and of course I want to grow, but sister this is all I know. I'm gonna live for a living. I'm gonna live for a living my five year plan. My five year plan.....My five year plan. I've given my all, it's all that I have. I've given my all my all my all my five year plan.
- Officer you have the wrong man, I am not that man
Officer don't haul me in I've not had a drink for weeks, but tonight they were screaming at me again at least I didn't punch her in her teeth. A man's gotta do what a man's gotta do, and she can't be talking loud like that. I wish you knew what I'm going through, but she's a whole different person when I pull out the bat. I only wanted to scare her. I promised I would never hurt her, but when she talks about leaving I go AWOL and treat her like a deserter. I'll be honest with you I needed a fix, and you can take me in if that's a crime. You probably think I'm stupid but I've lost a lot of blood and I'm seeing lines. I apologize for disturbing the peace. Please tell the public that i'm very very sorry, but this is my house and I'll voice my opinions if I want to.
I never thought she would stab me so far. She always argued with a knife in her hand, but I think that she loves me very very much and it's all my fault.
Officer don't haul me in I'm dying here and I need a drink. Tonight she was screaming at me again. So I laid down the law she was standing by the sink. Honestly it was probably my fault because I was just trying to scare her. But before I knew it she put a knife in my ribs. So far in that I couldn't even blink. She left the house, please try and catch her, she'll want to say goodbye. You could probably say we've got it all mixed up. I don't like it this way it's just how it is. I can't figure out how we got this far. It's probably my drinking we didn't need it. I always ordered up a temper when I left the bar, and then I brought it home for us to feed it. I don't know why we fought like this. I can't believe that I'm dying on my floor. What's gonna happen to my kids? Tell them mommy loved them, and daddy did more.
I'm sorry that they had to see the whole thing. I'm a monster and they know it you know this is no place for a kid to grow up in though it's better this way.
- Seatbelt Hands
She's the kind of lady that calls everybody baby
honey, sugar, sweetie, she's always making friends
and she keeps us all locked outside her thick leather skin
she always starts with a smile, it's small and butter yellow
but easier than a handshake, doesn't like her hands touched
she tans alot, gets burnt alot smoking through the cartons
but then gets put out so much, she's considered a bargain
she was born on the fourth of july with her hand on her heart
- There Are Wrecking Balls Inside Us
a.) It hasn't poured this much as long as I remember, but I've been forgetting a lot. Sometimes you get used to scraping bottom. There are wrecking balls moving in these rooms forgotten. Tearing it all down around me. Taking little stabs at growing. Cutting my arms to spears making dreams and not knowing, and never going to those places I make myself see. I just pull up the covers, and try to get sleep while the grass grows on the streets. I am all alone, and you are all alone. I am all alone, you are all alone. I am all alone, and you are all alone, but we are all alone together. Because it's ok to be scared sometimes, and brave sometimes, and fail some times sometimes, and it's not possible to lose every time. We have the time. We have the time. We have the time. What we build could be anything!
b.) There are wrecking balls inside our hearts inside our tongues and they are moving. They're swinging in our thoughts and fists, and they're smashing us together, but that's how we'll make it through. We'll use our hands and legs and guts and chains and turn the ground with shovels and dig up old roots. Unforgiven mistakes our parents made that maybe we’ll make too. Build a fire and hammer out everything that we've obeyed, and make a plow to dig us through. Covered in gasoline burning with purpose. I am not alone, and you are not alone. I am not alone, and you are not alone, and we are not alone together. Because it's ok to be scared sometimes, and brave sometimes, and fail some times sometimes. It's not possible to lose every time. We have the time. What we build could be anything! We can go places we've never even thought of.
c.) There will never be exactly perfect seas to set sail on. So sister the water is waiting, and brother we all might drown. But if we dive on out together, and not just wonder if we'll ever grow. We'll be free forever, and stop all this wandering around. Free inside our hearts and in jars in the basements of our minds, and give our lives away to keep each other alive. But we never will be finished, and I'm ok, are you ok? Ok, we'll swing our hearts around in our own ways. What I build could be anything! What you build could be anything! What we build could be anything, it could be anything anything! What I build could be anything! What you build could be anything! What we build together could be anything! We just have to build it.
- Tornadoes
a.) Ok. I feel like I’ve always had a tornado inside of me. You have it inside of you. Just sometimes it doesn’t move. I sort of bloom late, but I know it’s still there. It still twitches. I’m still flinching. I’m hiding in the basement. Trying to keep my head down. Trying not to get shocked. Trying to keep the windows boarded up. Trying to find the words that need a home too, and that home might be you. While that storm stays eating at the front door of my mind. Out here stranded between home and where I live. Waiting for the sun to peek in like a killer. Until I can know the coast is clearer. If it comes from the sky and it’s bad: It must be God. It must be mad. Like it changed its mind. Said never mind. So I told myself that if I quit moving I died. So I started it spinning and spinning around.
b.) But you were alive on that day in this town in this state, and you were younger and not as sure as you are now, but you were alive in every way. But we couldn't say that we'd ever find it again. So I put a mark on my heart for myself and all my friends. So we can find it again. Holding up your families. Holding up houses. Holding down jobs, and tears. I hope you never again have to use people and each other like washers (tightening the screws), but you were there for each other. Didn’t leave. Didn’t give up. And there’s a kind of unfortunate peace you have that no one can take away. And the pictures prove that you used to live so take more. And even if you don’t know what love is try and be all of it. And build an army, an army of peace. We are homeless in our houses. There are no guarantees. Even in our houses we are homeless. There are no guarantees.
- Train Song
Verse 1:
I was alone, and my train was late that night.
I saw a crumpled man blinded by the life that he treated himself to
Crippled from the nights receiving endless beatings that even a house couldn't endure.
Palm raised skyward, his meager belongings collected on the floor.
Singing songs to no one about nothing, but crying because they mean so much.
It's these babblings that keep his life going, keep the nickels flowing deep into his cup.
There we both were framed in awkward silence, and I was in his living room invading his trust.
- Wooden Heart
WOODEN HEART (sea of mist called skaidan)
We’re all born to broken people on their most honest day of living
and since that first breath... We’ll need grace that we’ve never given
I've been haunted by standard red devils and white ghosts
and it's not only when these eyes are closed
these lies are ropes that I tie down in my stomach,
but they hold this ship together tossed like leaves in this weather
and my dreams are sails that I point towards my true north,
- You Have Never Lived Because You Have Never Died
I saw 13 black crows as black as 3AM
and as big as vultures eyes
with wings hanging to their sides like laundry on the line
they were standing in a circle letting their tongues dry
they’re coming for me like thieves or ghosts
stealing songs, and whispering poems to themselves
about nonsense and existence