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[Verse 1]
Went back home in the winter
Moved into my parents’ house
And walked the hallways like a stranger
Still haven’t figured anything out

[Verse 2]
‘Cause I still don’t know what to do

Distant solar systems and all the minor planets
Know nothing of our satellites and 747s
Fireworks that recreate the birth of constellations
Dying suns that laugh at shotgun powder imitations

When I am a sailor, and the sky, a pitch-black ocean
I’ll look down at my bleeding heart and wish I were a Vulcan

Let me pick through the empty dirt
And the rotten wood and the shoddy work
Cause I'm interested, and our carpenter is so elegant at placing splinters
Right beneath my nails, where I cannot dig them out
But the same briars from your ribs are the tinder in my father's house

And I know, I know, I know, I know
I know myself better than anybody else

I wake up with the same pain every night,
Digging a hatchet in my left side,
Clearing my chest of something to burn,
Ash for a decorative urn you keep on your mantelpiece;
Like a trophy for everything
That withers eventually...

Call me a coward, but I'm too scared to leave,

Went walking again, go out and forget
To tell any of my friends I'm going
I'm just drunk on the side of the road in a ditch
When you find me I wanna go home
I'm sick

There's more whiskey than blood in my veins
More tar than air in my lungs

All of my friends live in a plastic bag walking around
Jumping the train tracks, over the fence, veins all black
Sleep on a bench in the park on my birthday
Call the blue lights
Cursed your name when I find I'm still awake

Give me everything good, and I'll throw it away
I wish that I could quit but I can't stand the shakes

Wish I could write songs about anything other than death
D G
I can't go to bed without drawing the red, shaving off breaths;
E7 A7
Each one so heavy, each one so cumbersome
G
Each one a lead weight hanging between my lungs
D

There's a hole in the drywall still not fixed
I just haven't gotten around to it
And besides I'm starting to get used to the gaps

Say you wish you could find some way to help
Don't be so hard on myself
So why is it easy for everyone else?
I'm not always like this