- .all i want is nothing.
i think back to the heart attack, when our world seemed so brand new. i wasted time with a crooked spine when i really should have spent my time with you. now all i want is nothing, because all i want is what i can’t have. all i want is nothing, if i can’t have just one more single second of your undivided attention. all i want is you. all i have now are memories of how you felt lying next to me. all we are is a memory. i used to have a best friend, now just one more enemy. and all i want is nothing, because all i want is what i can’t have. all i want is nothing, if i can’t have just one more second of a time when i was yours and you were mine. and all i want is everything we never had before but i still want more. all i want is you, to want me.
- .blood infections.
i wanna try. i wanna live all night and burn out bright. i want you to know what i can’t show the outside, it’s why i hide. but your friends say i’m no good for you. what do they know? please don’t listen to a goddamn thing they say. if tonight’s our night baby, just don’t hurt me. i’ll give you my heart. if tonight’s our night baby, just don’t hate me for taking your light. i need a love. i want enough to keep my thirst satisfied. i wanna take your hand, make you understand my side and our kind. but i know it’s hard for you to let go of the world that you knew. please just close your eyes, we’re better off this way. tonight’s our night baby, so don’t hate me, trust in me. i wanna show you my world. tonight’s our night baby, so don’t hurt me. i’m so scared of what’s to come. in the dark no one hides but me. in the dark no one hides. in the dark no one gets away. we own the night. every night’s our night baby so stay with me, be with me, until the end of this world. We owned the night.
- .Just Ain't Enough For Me.
(we may wanna grow old. but we don’t wanna grow up.)
yea it may be a lie to tell everyone i’m fine when i get so tired of all my tired plans
so i won’t hesitate to make all the big mistakes cause i get so excited when my sky falls down.
my smile is a wasteland, my ’sorry’s are a wasteland
my body breaks from all the weight on my shoulders.
my love is a wasteland, my forgiveness is a wasteland
i felt all the aches a heart could take. i’ll be goddamned.
i’m so tired of all this quiet.
- .she's the prettiest girl at the party and she can prove it with a solid right hook.
i got my bags all packed and i’m ready to go. i’m standing outside of your figurative door. and i’m ready for the flight or to fall of a cliff, but if it’s alright with you i’d rather not miss out on us. cause your face is all i need to stay sane. i’ve spent my life getting in my own way. so i could use something good, i really need this to work out. of course the way things have been going it might be smarter to just cash out. but you’re on my mind, and the things that you say hurt me most of the time. but i’m sinking fast so it’s alright. i’ve tied my stomach in knots and I’m ready to know. i’ll put it on the line if you’d just give it a go. cause i wanna be the only one to hold you so close and so tight. and if it’s cool with you, i’d really love to spend the night. you said you never wanna be saved, well, that’s ok because i really wouldn’t know how. just know that the best that i’ll ever be is whatever you make me and wherever you are…you’re on my mind, and the things that you say hurt me most of the time. but i’m on your side, cause i know i’m not easy to deal with sometimes. but i’m sinking fast, so it’s alright. all we wanted was what we were, and what we were was young and naive. i found my place in this world, it’s in your wake. you’re on my mind, and the things that you say hurt me most of the time. but i’m on your side, because i know i’m not easy to deal with sometimes. but once in a while, i wish you would tell me if you even care. because i’m sinking fast, and i need you…i need you to know that i’m alright
- .stage 4 fear of trying.
if i face my fears, would my skies be all but clear? probably not. then again i’ve always held my doubts so close to my heart that these frames have trapped all my better days. there they stay frozen and unscathed. though i’ve traveled far, i’ve been back to the start. and i found some scars in places i have never shown to anyone. i don’t know why it took so long to get back home. “if you could hear the dreams i’ve had my dear…” yea i know you’ve heard that line before. but if i had the chance to scream all the things i’ve underlined…you’d find i’m a thief, but my taste is so refined. i traveled far, i reached for the stars. but those stars don’t reach back, they’re better left alone, everyone will tell you. i never felt more alone than when i fell. so i don’t know why it took so long to get back home. i’ve traveled all these miles just to get back home.
- .stitches.
i want what i want. i need what i need. i want what i need. i need what i want. but i’m not what you wanted. let’s go…hell-bent on slipping away. i felt you slowly turn away. my thoughts go black it breaks my heart. i ignore your taps on windows still. i’ve become attached to where i fell. it’s true, there’s room for you. although we’ve still got miles to go, i’ve forgotten the places i used to know. this face gives smiles unjustified. i once was lost but i swear i’m fine. until the ground holds me in it’s arms i’m true, and i’ll wait for you. isn’t it obvious I’m a wreck, i set these fires just for you. isn’t it obvious i’ve calmed down, i saved my breakdowns just for you. i’m hell-bent on slipping away. i felt you slowly turn away. i’ve seen rock bottom, and it was love at very first sight. i’ve been asleep what seems like days. these dreams i love are just a phase. this life i loathe is in my way. i felt you slowly slip away. those cemetery eyes, these 7 deadly sins, these 40 days of night, have severed all our ties. i am the seventh son. i have my father’s eyes. i am a loaded gun. i am the setting sun
- .tragician
(I spend most of my days and most of my nights chasing tomorrow)
I hate the things I do
And all the shit I put you through
It's tragic, I'm static
I am the world's worst
I am my own worst enemy
And I hate me
- .weighted.
if we wait, it may be too late. we’ll make everybody cry, we wouldn’t even have to try. but if we stay, we may overstay our allotted time and it just wouldn’t feel right. but I only speak the truth. and I’ll always bleed for you. so let’s laugh, let’s learn to laugh at ourselves again. and let’s love, let’s hate what our love makes us do. if i try, i may have to try my entire life and that just doesn’t sit right. but if i fall flat on my face, then may my bones break under my own weight. but I only want the truth, and that’s the one thing you can’t do. sometimes though the world goes round, somethings just don’t change. sometimes it leaves me feeling old. if we wait, it may be too late. we’ll make everybody cry, we wouldn’t even have to try. i understand why you couldn’t stand another day standing in your own way. so let’s let’s laugh, let’s learn to laugh at ourselves again. and let’s love, i love what my hate makes me do
- Guilt Tripping
so many stars in the sky and i don’t know why they always have to fall on me. maybe i’m blind to all of the signs that the world never wanted me. i went outside today hoping the sun would burn my face. i went outside today hoping i’d feel something. my body’s weak, it gave up on me. this time i don’t think i’m gonna get out from what i’m underneath. it’s hard to believe another day of rain has come and gone. don’t go she said, i wouldn’t mind but i’m cold inside. i’ve felt this bad for so long that i’m scared i’m fine. save room for me in memories. i’d love to always be a small part of what makes you smile. from time to time just think of me and be glad i’m home. let’s close our eyes, we’ve got time to make each other cry. it’s best this way, i’m used to being left behind. i remember a time when i felt so unlike me. i remember a time when someone could love me. i remember when i still felt alive. don’t go she said, i wouldn’t mind but i’m cold inside. i’ve felt so bad for so long, i’m scared i’m fine.
- Oceans
There's still a part of me that needs to look the same way into your eyes
The world may fall apart
I hate everything that waits outside my door but locked inside I'll be alright
Alright, alright, alright...
Honestly, I'm convinced the best of me is the worst of me
Believe me, I've tried but I just can't seem to fight
Against the tide and undertow that drags me down
- Weighted
If we wait, it might be too late
I’ll make everybody cry
I wouldnt even have to try
If we stay, we may over stay
Our alloted time
And it just wouldn’t feel right
But I only speak the truth
And I’ll always plea for you